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        <title>Update Coming Soon, Promise</title>   
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        <p>Hope you all had happy holidays!&#160; This has been the best Christmas break for me in quite some time, I think...I promise a real update is coming soon!&#160; I&#39;m also really excited about the new year...I&#39;m going to get serious about something I&#39;ve been thinking about for a long time, and changes (may) be in store here within the next year. And I&#39;ve got my brother joined in on this one for morale/support, so this is not going to be one of those New Year&#39;s resolutions that I discard by February.&#160; </p>
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        <title>12/31/99</title>   
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        <published>2009-12-31T07:52:36Z</published>
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        <p>When I was 15, I wrote myself a letter to open on New Year&#39;s Eve, 2009. &#160;After waiting 10 years, I couldn&#39;t wait any longer and opened it. (IT COUNTS, it&#39;s New Year&#39;s Eve.)<div><br /></div><div>I was very apprehensive opening the letter, wondering if reading it would remind me of lost dreams and remind me of things I haven&#39;t accomplished, especially as I&#39;m somewhat in the midst of a quarter-life crisis...but I have to say that the letter was a bit of a letdown in that respect. The letter was more of a snapshot of my life at that moment instead of what I wanted to accomplish within the last ten years, which is good. But it was still fun to read and reminded me parts of myself that I want to get back. &#160;Here it is, with my modern-day commentary not italicized:</div><div><br /></div><div style="text-align: right;"><em>December 31, 1999</em></div><div style="text-align: right;"><em><br /></em></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em>Dear Jenny,</em></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em><br /></em></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em>I am writing this on the eve of the new millennium (</em>I spelled it correctly even back then, take that!) <em>It is 6:40 pm. &#160;It is already 2000 in Italy.</em></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em><br /></em></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em>You&#39;re not going to see this again until December 31, 2009. &#160;Let&#39;s see, you&#39;ll be...twenty-five! You&#39;ll be...older! I wonder if you&#39;ll be in computers...a teacher...a writer...an actress? &#160;Will you have a family? A boyfriend? Where will you live?</em></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em><br /></em></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em>Right now you have Max and Tad for pets </em>(Max was my dachshund, and Tad was my brother&#39;s frog). &#160;<em>Patrick is searching for Woody&#39;s hat.</em></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em><br /></em></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em>I just got through &quot;helping&quot; Mama with dinner. She got mad at me. &#160;Personally, I think she needs to lighten up. &#160;</em>(LOL SORRY MOM, me and my teenage hormones). &#160;</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em>Your friends are: Frances, Ruby, Jackie, Melissa, Lindsey, Jett, and others.</em></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em><br /></em></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em>Your classes are Chemistry #&#39;s, English # (boring), P.E., Algebra 2#, orchestra (boring, I&#39;m dropping out), World History #, and Spanish.</em></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em><br /></em></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em>I had a back appointment on the 28th (same day Frances got back from Hawaii) &#160;I&#39;m out of the danger zone! (</em>I got diagnosed with kyphosis when I was 14, and for awhile there they thought I needed a back surgery. I went to physical therapy for a year and didn&#39;t need it any longer).</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em>This letter is kind of disappointing and you&#39;ll be bored to death reading it. Maybe a little embarrassed.</em></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em><br /></em></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em>We got a new car. &#160;It&#39;s a Ford Contour. &#160;It&#39;s beige and it&#39;s great.</em></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em><br /></em></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em>I got 2 rejection letters: no acceptance letter yet. &#160;I hope that in ten years I will be a best-selling author.</em></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em><br /></em></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em>I just saw a commercial on Drunk Driving. &#160;Will I be alive in 10 years? I&#39;ve always had this awful premonition (</em>Ok, I was very morbid when I was a teenager and obviously had anxiety issues even back then).&#160;</div><div style="text-align: left;"><em><br /></em></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em>Well, so long. WAIT! I forgot to write my hobbies! I love writing, crafts, exercising, food (hee hee, I&#39;m still thin. &#160;</em>&lt;- I wrote that back then, sounds kind of bitchy right?) <em>I love all the arts: literature, theater, dance, art, and music. I LOVE to read. &#160;I like such classics as Little Women and Gone with the Wind to such new ones as Harry Potter. I hope I can get the whole set. &#160;</em>(I had JUST read the first Harry Potter book maybe just a week before I wrote this letter...it was the start of an obsession).</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em>I want to learn Italian. I&#39;m learning Spanish.</em></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em><br /></em></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em>NOW I have to go. &#160;Bye!</em></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em><br /></em></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em>Love, Jenny</em></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em><br /></em></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em>P.S. I&#39;m trying CHAMPAGNE tonight!! </em>(And hated it)</div><div style="text-align: left;"><em><br /></em></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em>P.P.S. &#160;We had a supper of linguine &amp; clams (yum), cauliflower salad (yuck), and potato fries (yum!)</em></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em><br /></em></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em>P.P.S.S. I keep going on ABCNEWS.com!</em></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em><br /></em></div><div style="text-align: left;"><em>P.P.P.S.S.S. &#160;</em>Here I wrote a little blurb in code how I liked one of my friends from high school, but what my 15-year-old self didn&#39;t know at the time is that he&#39;d come out of the closet two years later.&#160;</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">I think I will write one today for my 35-year-old self to keep the cycle going. &#160;Happy New Year&#39;s Eve, everyone. Stay safe.&#160;</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div></p>   <p style="clear:both;"> 
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        <title>QotD: Nosy Friends &amp; Family</title>   
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<p>What&#39;s the hardest, most embarrassing or most inappropriate question you were asked this holiday season? Who asked it? </p>
<p>&quot;Who do you want to kiss under the Mistletoe?&quot; - VOX</p>
<p>&#160;</p>
<p>JK, I don&#39;t know how to answer these things anymore.</p></blockquote>    <p style="clear:both;"> 
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        <title>Merry Christmas!</title>   
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        <p>Hope you all are having a wonderful holiday.&#160; Santa was very generous and got me a Coach Sabrina satchel this year.&#160; </p>
<p>Yesterday was Pat&#39;s 22nd birthday.&#160; It was a lot of fun, and by the end of the night, I was having WAAAAAAY too much fun. All I will say is that a.&#160; I will probably never drink Crown ever again and b. I did shit last night that my family will taunt me about for all of eternity. </p>
<p>I&#39;m very glad to be here at home, spending this Christmas with my family and closest friends. I hope that you all are just as blessed wherever you are.&#160; &lt;3</p>   <p style="clear:both;"> 
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        <title>QotD: Kissing under the Mistletoe</title>   
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<p>If you could kiss anyone under the mistletoe, who would it be? </p>
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<p>Your mom.</p></blockquote>    <p style="clear:both;"> 
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        <title>Can You BE More Condescending?</title>   
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        <p>I had to call my little friend from that post I made a couple of weeks ago, the guy at the governmental agency who speaks to me like I&#39;m 5.&#160; I called him again to ask a question because I couldn&#39;t get a hold of anyone else.&#160; He briefly explained the process but since I&#39;ve never done this before and want to get it right, I asked a clarification question.&#160; &quot;Weeeeeellll Jennifer,&quot; he said in a very condescending tone and UGH REALLY DUDE?&#160; Am I wasting that much of your time by asking one question?</p>
<p>I don&#39;t get it. I&#39;m trying to be nice and polite.&#160; Maybe my voice is too high-pitched.&#160; At work I keep a generally cheery and compliant air and only unleash the bitchy side when I need to...maybe I need to unleash that bitchy side MORE OFTEN.&#160; If he keeps doing this when I have a question, I&#39;m just gonna call him out on it.</p>
<p>I wonder if I will ever get to meet this guy in person.&#160; He&#39;s probably one of those old-school engineers in his sixties.&#160; If I do, I will make sure to give him one of my signature handshakes just so he knows I&#39;m not some weak little girl. I shake hands like a man! </p>   <p style="clear:both;"> 
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        <title>Hey Guys</title>   
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        <published>2009-12-16T05:46:16Z</published>
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        <p>Que pasa? I am wide awake as usual. This is terrible.&#160; I should be more mature about going to sleep but guess what? Hasn&#39;t happened yet.</p>
<p>Maybe with the start of 2010, I will mature into the Golden Age of Jenny, and be totally accomplished and responsible, and go to bed before midnight for fucking once.</p>
<p>I went for a good run yesterday with my running group. It helped cleared my jumbled thoughts a little, and the weather was fairly warm for December (even though it started getting so cold today). I hate running on the track but I managed to get 8 laps in.&#160; My stomach hurt terribly after 6 of them, which always sucks.&#160; But once the pain went away, I went back out and finished 2 more.&#160; My stomach always hurts if I run too fast, so I don&#39;t know if I&#39;m pushing it too hard or what. But how will I ever get faster if I don&#39;t run faster and just push aside the pain? I don&#39;t know. I&#39;m a wuss.</p>
<p>I have a Gone With the Wind special taping on TCM and I keep looking up and seeing stills of Vivien Leigh.&#160; She was sooo pretty. If I could choose to look like anyone, it&#39;d be her.&#160; </p>
<p>Tomorrow we have our company luncheon, and then on Friday there is another luncheon at my downtown office.&#160; I&#39;m gonna have to restrain myself from piling on the desserts, which is what I usually do during luncheons :)&#160;</p>
<p>I don&#39;t know what else to say.&#160; </p>
<p>&#160;</p>   <p style="clear:both;"> 
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        <title>Sigh</title>   
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        <published>2009-12-14T01:05:47Z</published>
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        <p>I don&#39;t have any motivation to be updating this thing very much anymore...I will keep at it though. I just feel like Vox is slowly dying. &#160;A lot of my buddies on here have jumped ship due to other sites and various issues with this platform. &#160;I&#39;ve been using my <a href="http://healthypanda.tumblr.com">Tumblr</a> account a lot and enjoying it, maybe a little more now that I&#39;ve enabled comments on there (thanks, Jack!) &#160;I like the simplicity of uploading pictures, audio files, and videos. &#160;I also like trying to express as much as possible with few words.<div><br /></div><div>I&#39;ve been going through some shit lately. &#160;Nothing bad, I have friends who are going through soooo much worse so I&#39;m grateful for what I have and whatnot...just you know. &#160;I guess it&#39;s really all just me. &#160;Years of being incredibly hard on yourself and not taking care of yourself can really take a toll on a person. And I wish I can take back some of the things I&#39;ve done in the past. &#160;I just want to rewind and say I&#39;m sorry and make everything better, but it&#39;s too late. It&#39;s much too late. I missed my chance a long time ago and there&#39;s no turning back. All I can do is look forward. I just wish I wasn&#39;t so stubborn and acted like I didn&#39;t care when I did the entire time, so so much. &#160;I wasn&#39;t a nice person at times because I was trying too hard to keep everything bottled up and not show how I really felt. &#160;I was too scared to take a chance so I just tried to pretend that I didn&#39;t care, hoping that I could convince myself that this is how I really felt. &#160;But I can&#39;t do it, even after all this time. &#160;I&#39;m so good at hiding how I really feel that sometimes I was able to fool the ones closest to me, but it&#39;s getting too hard for me to do it now. &#160;And I don&#39;t want to do it anymore, because it hurts too much.</div><div><br /></div><div>I can&#39;t really use this as an outlet anymore as much as I did in the past. &#160;The things I want to talk about the most, I can&#39;t really say on here or even in the neighborhood only posts...because I know too much of you all in real life. Lol. &#160;<div><br /></div><div>I have a lot of work to do within the next couple of weeks...I just have to &quot;defrag&quot; myself and my thinking. If you have any questions, inquire within. &#160;Just don&#39;t expect any straight answers ;)</div></div></p>   <p style="clear:both;">    
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        <title>Camping Virgin</title>   
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        <published>2009-12-04T04:26:19Z</published>
        <updated>2009-12-04T04:28:26Z</updated>
    
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        <p>Tomorrow night, I am supposed to go camping.&#160; The trip is planned from tomorrow night to Sunday afternoon.&#160; We will be backpacking in the Hill Country.</p>
<p>I was pretty excited about it until a couple of days ago.&#160; In Texas, winters are usually fairly mild in December.&#160; I&#39;ve spent many Christmases in my hometown in shorts (barring that one year we actually got snow).&#160; So I wasn&#39;t too concerned about a camping trip in December.</p>
<p>But then this week, the news started reporting of the possibility of snow.&#160; I blew it off at first, but apparently there&#39;s a 70% chance that we&#39;re getting fucking snow tomorrow. If I DIDN&#39;T have to go camping, I&#39;d be thrilled.&#160; What a perfect reason to stay home, right? (Because I REFUSE to drive anywhere in snow.&#160; Ain&#39;t happening.&#160; And since all my coworkers have seen my car, they will believe me when I say it is safer for me not to drive in snow).&#160; </p>
<p>I am going camping with a Program team member, a bunch of high school kids, and some of their parents.&#160; He is the leader of this group of high school students...kind of like Boy Scouts, except it&#39;s Co-Ed.&#160; He asked me to do this back in the summer, and I said sure. It sounded pretty fun. And up until three days ago, I was pretty pumped.&#160; Then the news of the snow came in, and I was like, shit. Who wants to camp out in snow, for the first time?&#160; I asked if we were still going if it snowed.&#160; &quot;Yes!&quot; he said. &quot;We&#39;re only not going if the roads are icy and unsafe to travel on.&quot; </p>
<p>I&#39;ve been scouring weather reports and now it&#39;s kind of hard to tell what the weather will be like tomorrow.&#160; One report says that the snow will stop by mid-afternoon, while another says that there will be a freeze tomorrow night.&#160; We&#39;re not supposed to get to the site until 9:30, so I definitely don&#39;t want to be on the roads around then.&#160; The good thing is that parents are responsible for driving everyone (I&#39;m not even allowed to drive, thank goodness).&#160; So I&#39;m sure that if there was some concern, we&#39;re all adults and would be able to make a rational decision.</p>
<p>I guess the only thing left to do is wait and see.&#160; Since I don&#39;t want to go camping in freezing temperatures, cross your fingers for me that we get a deep freeze here in Central Texas tomorrow and that we postpone the trip for warmer temperatures.</p>
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        <title>Thanksgiving Break Round-Up</title>   
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        <published>2009-12-01T04:30:51Z</published>
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        <p>The good <a href="http://captainhaddock.vox.com">Pete</a> reminded me that I haven&#39;t done my annual Thanksgiving break roundup.&#160; So, here it is, in abbreviated form.</p>
<p><strong>Tuesday</strong> - I drove home and chilled with my family.&#160; That evening, my aunt, uncle, and cousins stopped by to visit since they were in town.&#160; It was my first time meeting my baby cousin Eliana, and she was just as adorable as she was in the pictures.&#160; I love babies.</p>
<p><strong>Wednesday </strong>- Went on a run on the treadmill, which tells you how desperate I was for a run.My friends came into town.&#160; That night, Pat dropped me off at the Martini Bar so I could meet up with Tap, Conrad, and Clint.&#160; I very rarely get to enjoy a drink out since I&#39;m always driving myself, so it was nice to be able to relax and have a few.&#160; We just hung out for awhile listening to the local band playing there (good) and the DJ (bad, very bad).&#160; Then we started playing pool, which was my first time ever. Haha.</p>
<p><strong>Thursday</strong>&#160;- Thanksgiving! I actually made my pumpkin pie before my dad started his turkey.&#160; This is probably for the first time ever as I usually procrastinate on the pie, leading to my dad getting on my case for procrastinating and rushing the pie.&#160; Everyone declared that this was the best pie ever, so I guess I did something right.&#160; I stayed in and watched movies with my dad, as Pat went out with his friends and my mom fell asleep.</p>
<p><strong>Friday</strong> - Tap invited us over for a fantastic Thanksgiving feast that his parents made.&#160; We then went to the mall, where I was able to get some good deals.&#160; Later that night we went to play pool, and capped it off with late night Whataburger.</p>
<p><strong>Saturday</strong> - My dad and I went on a good run, which I needed to clear my head and lift my spirits from something that was bothering me.&#160; We decorated the tree at night.&#160; For some reason, one of my parents had randomly stuffed the ornament box with old papers and photos. I found old pictures of me, including one from 8th grade that should never see the light of day again, as well as the journal for English class I wrote at 16.&#160; </p>
<p>It always sucks returning from a break, because I have to get used to how quiet my apartment is.&#160; It takes a bit to get my mind back into work mode, too.&#160; I&#39;m getting sick too, which also is not fun.&#160; I hope it clears up before Friday night, as I&#39;m supposed to go on a backpacking trip this weekend.&#160; If I feel better, I will go and buy some warm clothes for the trip.</p>
<p>I&#39;m going to go relax. Hope y&#39;all had a wonderful Thanksgiving.</p>
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